It is OKAY to not be okay

I used to be a very optimistic person, in control, have all my ducks in a row. But life happened, triggered all of the emotions that I have been hiding and keeping inside of me all this time, I am bursting. I am out of control, I am no longer optimistic, I am falling behind, I am broken.

Slowly, I have realised it is actually okay to not be okay. You can’t expect to get over something overnight. You can’t switch the emotions off and put your brains into activity after reading all these quotes from tumblr or pinterest or whatever about life. About how your life is happening right now, about how you shouldn’t waste your time worrying about little things, about how you should get up and just be happy and blablabla.

Don’t get me wrong, I am not saying these things are wrong, they are all true, but what I am saying is it is OKAY if you don’t feel that way. It is okay. Because sometimes, all you need is time. Time to grieve, time to heal, time to fall apart, time to do whatever the hell you want in order for you finally get there. You just need to give yourself a break to be a human being, to feel all of these feelings, because you are not a robot. I used to be. Not anymore.

Sometimes, all we have to do is just let it be, let it be just as it is cause maybe that is exactly what you need! Stop googling inspiring quotes on how to be happy, how you should get out there etc, how you are so blessed etc. Because you already know that, but shit happens. That is life. That…. Is life. Whatever that you are going through, every single detail, it teaches you things and sometimes, you just have to let it be. Take a step back for awhile, stop beating yourself up for being left behind from your initial plans, for being broken, for being sad etc, just stop and just let it be. Because one day, one fine day, this phase that you are going through, it will all make sense. You will realise that you needed it, it made you stronger, wiser, and the person you are today/will be.

I think the main thing that you should do while you are at this phase in life, is surround yourself with positive, genuine, loving, and caring people. The people who loves you and cares about you will never bail on you no matter what, I repeat, no matter what. I guess this is also the time when you will realise who is real and who is not. And when you finally realise the people who are not real, remember, let it be. And perhaps slowly, let them go.

So, it is okay to not be okay. =)